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Resolutions…

It is a new year, so we are all supposed to stop and make resolutions, right?!  I think there has been a movement in the last couple of years to try to make more realistic resolutions, but I still seem to be reading some over the top ones.  Either way, I am always curious to stop and hear what others want to see change in their lives.  I know there are things I want to see change in my life – I just do not know that I want to call it a resolution, as I do not have much control over them.  Here is my current, honest list (brief first, reasoning to follow)of, for lack of better words, resolutions…

  1. Find a new place to call my church home
  2. Go to Thailand (and of course, ride an elephant while I am there)
  3. Better respect for my body
  4. Read more, and actually finish the books I start
  5. Start dating my future spouse

So, we will start from the beginning of the list.  I want to first say I am very thankful to the Lord for BBC.  It is where I became a believer because John Piper saw the need for a stronger college ministry at his church.  He led the movement to bring Campus Outreach to Minneapolis.  It is through those specific events that the Lord chose to use them to work in my heart and first reveal Himself to me.  For that, I will forever be grateful – it literally changed my life.  However, that does not mean that it is always going to be a perfect fit for me – so, the search has begun for me to find a new place to call home – maybe not tomorrow and maybe not forever.  So, I am still currently a member at BBC and will stay in my small group until the time is ready for me to commit to a new place.  I just know in my heart that this is what I need – and who knows, maybe the process will lead me back to BBC, but for now this is my biggest resolution as I feel it has clearly been laid on my heart.  As one friend plead with me, “Please do not throw the baby [literally – baby Jesus] out with the bath water,” because he wants me to be walking with the Lord in a year from now, which looks like may best be done at a different church home that better ministers to me.

Number two is fairly simple – go to Thailand to visit my dear friend, Laura.  Putting it on paper makes it more real to plan for.  I cannot wait to get over there – as I have wanted to go to that part of the world for thirteen or fourteen years now – and the opportunity has finally presented itself.  Pretty excited, especially to get to ride an elephant in it’s natural environment (versus the circus when I was a little girl).

Three just finally made it on my list after sitting and thinking about others’ resolutions.  I mean sure, I am a girl – so who wouldn’t want to lose a few pounds?!  But it is so much more than that – when I think about having better respect for my body.  In 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 it says, “Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.”  So, with that I think about wanting to make decisions that honor the Lord with my body because He is dwelling in me.  I do not want to break that intimacy with Him by running to other idols, which in 2012 played out more clearly in physical things that impacted my body negatively.  Simply abstaining from the things that hurt me is not the necessary solution, as it changes the behavior but does not get to the heart behind it.  So, this is one resolution that I am leaning fully on the Lord to cultivate a spirit in me that wants to fight to have deeper unity with Him over momentary pleasures in this world that break intimacy with him.

I used to read all the time.  It was one of the sweetest parts of my week.  Sneaking away to a coffee shop to get lost in books that challenged my mind and stretched my thoughts.  It stirred my affections for the Lord so much.  Not that it is a cure all, but even the little bit I read over the holidays revealed to me I need to go back to this – as it ministered to my soul so much.  So, I am going to try to get some more reading in, which will start with TrueFaced, The Calvary Roadand Mark Driscoll’s new book, Who Do You Think You Are?  I have a couple other books I also want to get to, but for now I think this is a good starting point – take me back to who I am in Christ.  I think remembering my true identity will deal with the heart, and Lord willing, lead to my hands to live out better respect for my body – as they are so closely related.  Behavior can only be managed for so long, this is needing some deep heart work, which is only going to happen by the Spirit doing some work – and me wanting to let the Lord do that work.

Oh, and well five is to put a smile on your face – and for me to be honest and vulnerable.  I know that many see me as this independent woman, who likes to play off that she does not need a man.  And honestly, that statement is very true – I do not need a man and I like to do a lot of things on my own.  I have been pretty independent the majority of my life, but that does not mean I have to be exclusively independent.  However, I do still want one and not just anyone – I want a man who I respect, who is pursuing the Lord – by no means perfect, but willing to come alongside me in this life so we can help one another come into a deeper union with Christ and see Jesus more clearly.  It will be messy, but I still there would be some pretty great parts.  This is also one of those resolutions that I have zero control over, but now as my readers you know – so feel free to pray, and dare I say even match make?!!  Eah, I am open to that…I think…

So, there we have it.  My resolutions for 2013.  I want all of them to be grounded in being resolved to seek the Lord more – I do not want any of these just because, but rather I want these to be means to know my true lover more.

Do you do the whole resolution thing?  What are your 2013 resolutions?

Much love,

B

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Where I Have Been…

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Well, it has been awhile – to say the least since I stopped in here to say hi or inform you where I have been.  Guess that kinda makes it hard for you to be with me…so, here I am.  Time has flown by – can you believe it is already April?!

Time has been flying because I have been working – a lot.  Though, I am not complaining because I have found that I actually really enjoy working.  Sometimes, I think I may enjoy it too much.  It is not due to loving what I do per se, but it is a place to get lost in – to escape the reality of what is really happening in life.  This, my friends, is not healthy nor okay – I don’t want to be that woman who is in a relationship with her job – but it is so easy to get suck in.  How does one fight against this temptation?

It is so easy for me to sit and justify to myself why I do this.  But at the end of the day, it comes back to it is sin that stems out of unbelief.  And this unbelief has multiple facets that is nasty.  I want to fix myself – but that is the point I think God is trying to hit me upside the head with – I CANNOT FIX MYSELF.  I need to stop being so freaking self-reliant and independent.  I need to be more patient (great – not what we would call one of my strengths).  I need Jesus.  I need to trust God.  And I need to let the Holy Spirit work.  I am thankful that I am not saved by the strength of my faith or my attempt to live the “good Christian life” – whatever that truly is, but rather I am saved by the subject of my faith – Jesus Christ. Alone.

Since I have been gone I have not only been at work.  I also went to California.  Where the saga of to more or not to move still continues.  Though, I am not going to expound on that right now – we will save that for a future post and thought.  I still have not made up my mind one way or the other, but this process is showing me a lot about myself, relation to others – and especially my relation to the Lord.  It has been hard, but good – seems to be a common theme in life (and a phrase used far too much, I want to find another way to word it, naturally…).

Do you ever find yourself being a workaholic?  How do you fight it?  What helps you?

Much love,

B

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O Canada…

This past weekend I had the privilege of going to Canada with a few of my sorority sisters from college.  I love to travel, especially internationally, and here was a cheap little get away out of the States!  Ha – sure it was not very extravagant, but it was exactly what I needed.  We left Thursday afternoon and came back on Sunday – and it was days filled with sun, laying out to soak up that sun, go for a couple swims (brr…so cold), and read.  Ah it was glorious – I got to read so much and loved every moment of it!  I finished a book (Eat Pray Love…wanted to read it before the movie came out), got caught up in Vogue (the best and true fashion magazine that I love reading each month…and yes I read it cover to cover), time in the Word and meditate on truth, and start a new book (Girls in Trucks…I also joined a book club and this is our book this month)!  I was so thankful to have time to read and enjoy the nature around me.  It was also so good to get caught up with my Theta gals – I love those girls and I know I am always bound to laugh really hard when I am with them.  It was a great break from the house hunting and job searching.  But, now I am back and back hunting for both – but thankful to have a much better perspective this week than I did last week – that is the grace of God and nothing else.  O Canada, thankful the Lord used an escape to you to refresh and refuel me…

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A new chapter…

Well friends, I finally am starting this blog I have been dreaming about for quite some time now.  I figured, with one chapter of my life coming to a close, it only naturally made sense to start the next chapter by blogging about it.  I am a midwestern girl born and raised, but have always wanted to be from anywhere but here.  I have learned it does not really matter where I live, but rather what you do where you live.   Clearly, I am not the one in control of my life, though I often like to think I am.  God had a different plan for me, but it looks like He has gotten me ready to finally leave my nest in MN.  It is still unsure where I will end up on September 1st, but for now the final destination looks to be LA, CA.  This little midwestern lady is ready for an adventure…

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