Monthly Archives: August 2010

Crashing down…

Do you ever feel like sometimes life comes crashing down?  What do you run to in those moments?  Thankfully, by God’s grace alone, 48 hours ago when I really did feel like everything was coming crashing down God met me and reminded me – He will get me through this, too – He always does.  I do not know how things will work out this time – or if anything will really ever change, but I refuse to let the devil win and leave me feeling defeated.  By now I am sure you are wondering what on earth I am speaking of.  The details are not super important, and for the sake of others I will not spell them out here, but you could say there is some (yes more than one thing) family issues that hit me both on Tuesday evening.  I may have seen this coming, but no matter how much you prepare yourself for bad things, when they happen they still hurt.  I am not in control of the situation and this time I am extremely relieved to not be in control.  The last 48 hours have made me cry out in desperation for the Lord for my own walk with Him – to not get bitter or frustrated that I have a few more things to log in the saga of family drama, fight feelings of loneliness, and also for my family – because I am clearly not the only one hurting in this.  Days like these make me thankful I am not upheld by my own strength, but rather I have a savior who is my dear friend who carries me through this, a Father who loves me and hurts with me, and a powerful God who knows exactly what is happening and has given me promises to cling to as I walk through this…what is meant for evil, God will use it for good (from Gen 50:20)…”And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,” (Rom 8:28a)…”The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. ‘The Lord is my portion,’ says my soul, ‘therefore I will hope in him.'” (Lam 3:22-24)…these are a few of the promises I am clinging to as I walk through a harder season.  I am learning how to hurt and morn, but still have joy in the Lord.  It is funny how, by the grace of God alone, believing the gospel is real and remembering that my hope is not in the things of this world that with things in life crashing down I can still fight for joy and trust that tomorrow will be a new day and the Lord will not leave me or forsake me…I am His beloved and He is mine…so bring it on, come crashing down world…you are not the dictator of my life and especially not my joy…

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Wicked…

Last night I had the opportunity to go see Wicked at the Orpheum Theatre with some of my good friends.  It was so good!  I had heard some of the music before, but honestly I could not understand what all the rave was about – I mean it just did not seem like it could really be up there with RENT, Spring Awakening or Les Miserables – but I was proven wrong, and so happy to be proven wrong.  I love theater, especially musical theater, and I have my mother and sister to thank for that, and really my dad, too – as it is one thing we used to do together as a family when I was a little girl.  I have had the privilege of seeing so many shows and I really used to take that for granted, but now that I am purchasing tickets, I am much more thankful.

Besides having a great time at the show with good friends, getting dressed up, my thoughts were also engaged.  Wicked deals a lot with good and evil, which is interesting for a culture where we are coming out of the last few generations trying so hard to avoid moral standings, everything is good – but we cannot get away from the reality that everything is not good.  Wicked deals with that, along with where does evil come from – nurture versus nature.  And on top of that, it deals with issues pertaining to women that have poor relationships with their father and how that really will affect you for the rest of your life if you never take time to work through that, replace the lies with truth and forgive him – which honestly can only be done by the grace of God.  There were points where I hurt for Elphaba (played by Vicki Noon – also known as the Wicked Witch) and could even relate to the lies she was believing and how she was trying to convince her self she could overcome them – and yes, it is possible to overcome those, but not on your own.  If you want to read the lyrics to one song that I simply adore for the musicality of it, but also love because of the heaviness of the lyrics, read hear.  However, unlike reality it ends with a happy ending, sort of, which was nice that everything does not end perfectly, but I guess that is the difference between a show and reality – the show must be wrapped up and come to a close where as life just keeps going on.  These are just a few thoughts on Wicked…highly recommend it – for the theater lover or the I just want to be a little more cultured…it is an enjoyable time and will leave you with plenty to discuss after the show…

B, Leigha and Keri all dressed up ready for the show

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Getting excited?! I think so…

Yes, that is right – I had a huge answer to prayer this past weekend because by the end of the weekend I was actually excited about getting to stay in Minneapolis.  This is huge, and such a grace from God to me!  After being refreshed and reminded of truth on Friday night (see post here), I was ready to be around people – and that is exactly what I did.  I recently joined a new small group and have loved getting to know the people in my group.  This weekend was filled with wonderful fellowship that had me laughing, thinking visionary for what this fall will look like (one of my favorite things to do) and how to turn the vision into action, adventures around the city with old and new friends.  It was so fun.  So refreshing.  I even got to go to Sunday night church and sit with my new friends from small group – I looked to each side of me and just thought to myself, “My life is rich,” as my good friend always says – and I could not agree more.  It left me excited to get to know these people more and live life with them.  It made me excited to move in to my new house – in Powderhorn.  Yes, friends, I am genuinely excited to live in south Minneapolis – I know no one ever thought they would hear those words coming out of my mouth, but they are.  If you were wondering if God was real, don’t wonder anymore – this is clearly a working of Him.  The Spirit is at work in me, and I am thankful for that.  Am I getting excited to start my life in the “real-world” in Minneapolis?!  I think so…by the grace of God giving me great friends to help make this transition so much more enjoyable…

B & Leigha...a dear friend who makes the transition so much more enjoyable

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A Daily Lesson…

Some things I know, but I seem to forget daily and have to relearn and relearn.  The current thing I have to remember is this world is fleeting and what I am currently walking through is not worth getting so uptight about.  It is funny, but this outrageous humidity and living in a house without AC making it hotter in the house than outside makes me so uptight and irritable.  I feel ridiculous admitting it, but it really does.  Yesterday, I was so worked up that I decided to go walk around Target simply because it was air conditioned.  Air conditioning is not the answer to my real issue.  Sure, it is a nice little band-aid that momentarily cures the problem – but it does not fix me long term.  Tonight, when I went away to get some alone time in the AC I decided to read one of my devotionals because I knew that my real issue was feeling distant from my heavenly Father.  The first sentence, “Learn to enjoy life more.”  How could I not laugh at myself?!  It was then followed by, “Relax, remembering that I am God with you.”  That is true.  That is what should give my soul rest – not a little AC for a few hours, though it is refreshing.  Even in the humidity and heat God is still with me and I am His daughter.  Yet, I seem to forget that so easily.  Thankful God is patient with me and continues to teach me.  It is a daily lesson…

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Till Death do They Part…

Well, I made it through Wedding Weekend 2010.  It started Wednesday evening and came to a close on Sunday afternoon.  I love weddings, especially between two people who love Jesus.  On Friday, I loved getting to be watch and be a part of two of my closest friends getting married – especially because they were not making the day about them, rather they wanted people to be pointed back to Christ.  Marriage is such a beautiful picture of Christ and the Church.  It was a shadow, reminding us that Jesus has paid it all.  The only thing is in earthly marriages we will part at death, where as with Christ there is no parting once we are united with Him through His blood.

The second wedding was very pink and full of Theta goodness.  It was so fun to see all the ladies, even though I was exhausted.  I was thankful to have the weddings over and get back home on Sunday and now I have two weeks off before I head to more weddings.  Love watching these couple come together and say their vows and start their lives together…till death do they part…

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A Day at the Beach…

Well, I may still be in Minneapolis but that is not going to keep me from the beach.  It has been ridiculously hot and humid here.  However, I have not had much time outside to get some sun and with Wedding Weekend 2010 quickly approaching (starts in just a few hours), I needed to get a little sun kissed.  Thus, I headed to the “beach” at Lake Calhoun.  Not as nice as the ocean beaches, but it works and I was extremely thankful to have some time to myself to relax, think, pray and read before the adventures begin.

Tonight it the Bachlorette Party for Cassie, tomorrow is running errands with the bride (which is really an excuse for this MOH to get to soak up the last minutes of her dear friends singleness), the rehearsal dinner, followed by our final sleep over as two single ladies and then Friday is the big day for Cas and Dylan.  That will be a jammed pack day of fun and excitement, but I cannot spend all my energy there because Saturday morning I wake up nice and early to hit the road and head to another wedding in Wisconsin to do it all over again – only this one I just get to participate by viewing and doing my sorority sister responsibilities.  We will be reviewing songs in the car to be prepared.  I know it may sound ridiculous, but it is fun – at least we will get a good laugh out of it.  So, needless to say the next few days will be busy and I was extremely thankful for a day at the beach…

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Just Fell in my Lap…

Well I am happy to say that I am back from my first day of work!  It is only a 10-hour a week job, but it is a job – and it is so flexible, which is great because it allows me to keep looking for more full-time work.  And, this could even turn into full-time work if I want it to.  It is in the medical and IT field…not really B, but I am open to trying new things – who knows, I may even come to really enjoy it?!  I am still praying to get interviews with Aveda and MIA, but am thankful to the Lord for providing this job – especially since I did nothing to get it.  It just fell in my lap last Friday…thankful to have friends that give me such amazing references – they got the job for me…so blessed…

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